We live in a world that promotes the notion of “self”. Everybody prides themselves on being self made, self taught, self driven, self reliant and so on. I hear a lot of people say, “I don’t need God” yet, subconsciously and desperately try to find Him everywhere he isn’t. Denying your need for God is just an indirect cry for him, and this is what many of us fail to realize. We need God more than we can ever think or imagine. As humans we’re just so bent on being the fixer, figuring it all out without any help. Either to feed our pride, or feel that sense of gratification of being able to do it all alone. Those voices that feed you those lies that being able to survive outside of God is possible, are LIES straight from the enemy.
Whether you feel like you just don’t feel Him anymore, or you don’t feel “worthy enough” for His love, whatever it is…remember it isn’t because He’s far away, it is because you are. Jesus says; “Draw near to me and I will draw near to you.” We make something so simple feel and look so complicated. Believe me, this is not one of those “easier said than done” things. God has always been there all along. Sometimes through entertaining certain thoughts we build up this wall of separation, allowing the enemy make us feel like God has abandoned us. This is totally false! I want to remind you today that He has always been there and He will always be there. He will NEVER leave you nor forsake you. God told Jacob in Genesis 28:15 “Behold, I am with you and will keep you wherever you go, and will bring you back to this land; for I will not leave you until I have done what I have spoken to you.” This promise is closer to you and I than we can ever imagine. This promise is yours to hold on to and never let go of. You just have to believe it. I started to feel God and my need for Him grow more and more when I decided to let go of the idea that I can do this life outside of Him and still be happy. Boy was I wrong! Not praying, not reading my Bible, not being engaged in spiritual affairs made me so miserable. But the moment i chose to let my guard down and stop deceiving myself was the moment I felt a shift in my mindset. I started to feel less in control and happier to be lead than try to lead. It’s an inexplainable feeling to be able to just let go completely and let God have His way in us. But first, we have to acknowledge that without Him we are but mere dust, and we need him. We can’t do this life without Him.
Cry out to God. One thing I truly admire about David in the scriptures is he was not afraid to express himself before God. Truly pour his heart out and tell God how he was feeling. David cried out to God in Psalms 71:12. He said “do not be far from me. Oh God make haste to help me.” We have to be the exact same way when we start to think we don’t feel him anymore. If you find yourself in this negative space of not feeling him then pray this prayer with me; “Lord I feel distant from you right now, I really want to feel you and know you but i am struggling. Lord reveal yourself to me and destroy this wall i have built up unknowingly or knowingly. Give me the desire to draw near to you so that you can draw near to me, and fill me back up again so that all I feel is you. Take away this notion of self from me, and grant me the ability to lean on you. Your word tells me to lean not on my own understanding but to trust you with all my heart. Help me to do this with ease. Thank you Jesus for always being there. I know you love me, Lord help me to receive your love that I may know a change. Amen! ”
Be blessed. xo